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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 02:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She loved him until the end.

All the time i was locked up.

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One cannot live in the past .

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Why is watching a man and a woman have sex considered perverted? It's how we all got here, it's what we do, I say if you want to watch porn then carry on!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

What did i know ?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

How can we become the best humans? How can we trust each other?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She married twice! .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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I don,t even have a pension.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

So whats the point in blame.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I have no regrets .

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

When she asked me how she looked .

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Especially a lifetime of it.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Ive learnt so much.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I think the readers, may guess!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Comes on , in middle age.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

So, i spoilt her more .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We were not on the streets..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Put me off passion for life!!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She wouldn,t have been !

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Who then, do I blame.?

I waited trembling.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We all went to grammer schools

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Was to survive, this bastard.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was seconnd youngest,

I was very sick at this time too.

My family never makes their pension either.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Would this be the day?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

This is soul school!.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I never cut or harmed myself..

Im still living with it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He knew the spot.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I write beautiful poetry .

As i do to all so called friends.?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My life is so biszare .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But, we were locked up after school.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She was in good health!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

It was going to be , some day.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was 9 years of age.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I said to her

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But it wasn’t much.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And i lived it daily.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She found it foreign!.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I will be 64.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I was scared of men, in general

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!